My Brain Today

 Today my brain felt like...

like maybe i was waking up a little more. Like the slumber ive been stuck in for ....2 ? years? maybe longer...since before i guess, i left tracey. My brain however feels a little lighter than it has, maybe it  was the work at the farm, or maybe im just gettin to the end of this part of the path....i somehow i knew id get here, Lets hope tomorrow is reminded by today and i can have even more clarity and maybe even some discipline....today my brain felt like, i was in control again

what kind of life do i actually want?

 So, this is my first journal entry and i asked chatGPT to provide me with a prompt. So, the kid of life i actually want is pretty easy stuff...a comfortable home , ideally in a tropical location, with my kids they have everything they ever need and want, while still not being spoiled brats. Give back to my parents for everything they have done for me, provide abundance and joy to all of my circle, i want us all to make it. I don't care for fame, but i want to impress the people around me, i feel like i want to be the person that everyone seems to think i am , including myself. i dont want to worry about money either , and to elaborate on that i don't want my kids to struggle because of any burden they may have got from me. more then anything i want to be able to spend my time with my family, and the wife that i don't have yet. i want  to be in love the way people in the movies are, a healthy all consuming love.